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Re-entering

Re-entering my life after a period of absence.  Trying myself out again. Do I still engage with knitting, spinning, art, creativity?  How have these elements changed in my life during my period of vacation?

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Let me re-introduce myself.  I am re-grounding.  I set up perimeters to establish routine, ritual, habits.  Boundaries and disciplines enabling devices to think straight and channel direction.

First on the list is walking.  Daily.  Not just walking, which has to be done everyday with the dogs, but walking with awareness and attention.  I notice the ordinary becoming extraordinary.  Smells, sounds, sights.  I am gaining a sense of place which reflects in my work.

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Second, I love what is around me and take time to enjoy the everyday stuff of life.  Feeding the birds, growing plants, trying to engage with details.  I have slowed my pace.

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I am working again.  Drawing and making art.  I established a routine of between 10 and 30 minutes a day.  This has become a ritual.  Already I have worked everyday for over 22 weeks.  To my astonishment I find that I am establishing a body of work.  Out of the discipline of everyday work new ideas emerge and forge forward.  I am excited and feeling positive.  I am becoming the artist I am but it is happening from within, quietly, surely.

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Spinning and knitting have slipped into new roles of calm and purpose without any rush, comparison.  Like the art, they are acts more of meditation and reflective process than about the need to complete and critique.

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I am reading…………….. consuming words and concepts as if I was back at uni again!  Discovering like minds and companions who speak the same or similar language to me.  Also those who dont.  Other minds, disciplines, ways of seeing.  Lifelines.

Not so much hands to hold but lights in the darkness.

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Reflections

DSCN2802I have been at a loss to know how to blog.  But today I think I just say how it is and that everything is not all bad.

We had some very precious days during this summer.  Fun filled and full of life.

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We have learned some very important things about living.  We have learned to treasure every moment (well most of them).  We feel that up till now we have lived lives with eyes half open.  Our eyes have been opened to see the importance of important things.

We understand now how in the desert there are oasis and that the sources are often unexpected.  We have laughed and cried and raged and prayed.  We have now accepted a new kind of normal for us.  This normal now is set to change to another level as we leave next weekend for new treatment in London.  The cancer is extremely rare, very aggressive and rarely, if ever seen in children.  None of the team of doctors has treated this cancer in a child before.  We are booked in for experimental treatment.  The road ahead is a rocky one, but we have also learned that we only have enough courage to face one day at a time.

I have found Perkins who is waiting for a new home!

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I have given this handknit a new home

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I have just started to spin enough for a jumper (maybe).  This is Whitefaced Woodland and I am spinning it longdraw which is also a new challenge for me.  Spinning was something I have only just started to do again.  I found it gave me too much time for reflection and so could not face it all summer.  Now I find it soothing and peaceful.

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I have had some great shows, particularly Wonderwool and Yarndale this year.  I have some to look forward to next year too.

In short life goes on.  Studded with joys and treasures among the grey days and dark nights.  We are still together and we have fun and laughter when we can take it.  We have just learned how to dig a little deeper.

DSCN2863We made a happy jumper!!